A couple of weeks ago, I was taught about psychoanalysis theories on literature. Ever since that lecture, I've been trying to psychoanalyze myself and because of that I haven't been sleeping very well lately.
And the depressing part is, I won't be able to find out what am I repressing because it's being repressed.
Anyway a quick intro on Psychoanalysis.
Sigmund Frued said that your repressed memories or unfulfilled desires usually comes back to you either through dreamwork, parapraxis/Freudian slips or certain compulsive behaviors. Yes, its the return of the repressed! It comes back to you all the time unconsciously, just that you won't notice it because it comes back in a different form.
For example, you witness a murder in a tulip field while the song 'Umbrella' was playing in the background. It's so traumatic that you couldn't remember about it. The thing about the brain is it automatically shuts off over traumatic memories in order for the owner(?) to move on with life. It's like a defense mechanism.
Maybe you'll dream about tulips and wake up feeling really uncomfortable or whenever you hear the 'ey ey, umbrella-ella-ella' you might cry or something, but you just don't know why.
That's why we're always dreaming about being chased , being late or searching for something.
Not sure is this related to psychoanalysis but I keep having Deja-vu moments lately. March 10th, Hanshin earthquake suddenly pops out from my mind. And the next day, although not in Osaka and Kobe, there is indeed an earthquake.
March 12th, the word 'funeral' comes into my mind all of a sudden and indeed there was a funeral the next day.
April 8th, the word 'nuke' keep appearing in my dreams!! I was even wearing this t-shirt that has the word 'nuke' printed on it. The next day while researching for my journalism assignment, I found out that Fox news actually use the word 'nuke power plants' instead of nuclear power plants. Up till yesterday, I've never came across the word 'nuke' in my entire life! I don't watch Fox news because its faux and I don't even know what nuke means!
Hmm..I don't know. Shall dig deeper into psychoanalysis and see what I'll learn about it!